Realizing My Need of Grace

A lot has been on my mind recently…not just with ministry or theology, but with life in general. Time has truly flown on by quickly; I still can’t believe it’s been over two months since Eunhee, Cassie, and I moved to Minnesota, and almost two months at KPCM. Everyone has been really welcoming, understanding, and encouraging to us–we have definitely felt the love.

During our time here, we have experienced many new things and enjoyed some new thrills. There were some bumps along the road, but for the most part, I think we have settled in well to a new life in the Midwest. Cassie has been adjusting faster than we expected, and is enjoying her new preschool. Eunhee’s program and schooling is finally coming together. I am slowly finding the rhythm and pattern, and slowing getting into a groove that is comfortable for me to do what I need to do. At the same time, I am definitely feeling the weight of the two ministries entrusted to me bearing down hard on my shoulders.

I don’t know if it’s a time management issue or because I am a perfectionist, but I feel that there is still so much to be done, and so many more people to meet and get to know. On top of that, I definitely do not want to neglect my duties at home to Eunhee or Cassie. I remember during my round of interviews and how everyone seemed to be genuinely concerned whether I could handle overseeing two separate ministries, and how brash and impetuous I must have come off when I said that I knew that I could without hesitation. I don’t know if it was youthful ignorance or pride, but I am definitely being humbled these days by the amount of time and effort that must be put in to be faithful and committed to both ministries. I am reminded of Richard Sibbes‘ quote in The Bruised Reed and how a bruised reed remains bruised because the Lord wants to remind it that it is not an oak. That is exactly what I needed to be reminded of in order that I daily approach the foot of the cross and partake of Christ’s mercies and grace. I am truly thankful for this chapter in our lives, the privilege of serving at KPCM, and this season of clarity. I pray that it would bring and bear much fruit to the glory of God.

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